comfort

Yesterday I was reading the book "Get Lucky" by Katherine Center and I got to a certain part where once I started laughing I couldn't stop.  Tears were running down my face and all I would have to do is read another sentence and the fit of laughter would continue.  My stomach was sore once I got to the end of the section.  I was so happy, I was high on oxytocin!
What really struck me later in the book was a wise older woman saying that as women we need to find what comforts us.  The heroine says "what if I don't know what comforts me?"  The woman says "well sweetheart, It's time you found out."  I felt it sit right in the truth center of my heart. 
This morning I found myself being super crabby with my family.  My youngest (6 1/2 month old) had been up crying, feeding and fussing much of the night. I was bleary-eyed and didn't want to be awake yet.  My husband had been super crabby the night before (in his defence he was doing the Master Cleanse, I know a little sympathy right?)  but not this morning.  My feelings were hurt and I just wanted to crawl back into bed but decided a shower would be my subsitute.  Once in the shower I realized I needed to get out of the house for a few hours and my plan was this-- Breakfast at Wendels in Fort Langley complete with a decaf mocha and some reading time. 
I got my earbuds in and put on my P.S I love you soundrack and off I drove. Already I felt so much better.  It was early morning and everything was covered in frost. I felt peaceful but was anticipating my morning all to myself.  My food and mocha were amazing! I am hearing a different beat in my head now, one that is filled with hope and comfort!
I've been wanting to start a blog for a long time.  I feel that the act of writing my thoughts down is cathartic and it allows me to explore more fully how I feel about my life, it also makes me more present.  I want to share what matters most to me.  My story of having three little girls who are so precious to me,  my husband who is the best listener, and the things that I seek out and provide me inspiration and bliss.  I will share my last birth story, what I love on pinterest, my cooking and baking adventures, my discovery of the world of knitting and moments of my life that are both raw and beautiful. 
This will be my corner, my place to express my thoughts, my comfort!